Tonight I am a mortified mother.
Today I went to pick up my daughter and there were television cameras everywhere.
Today, my worst nightmares and fears, and rumours where confirmed.
Today, I realised just how close she came.
Today, rumours where confirmed.
One of my daughters teachers died a few weeks ago. He was found at the bottom of a mountain range on a sunday afternoon. It was very sad, this terrible horrible accident to a lovely, kind, caring man. The kids loved him, they spent soooooooo much time with him, every lunch hour he had an open door policy and the kids just came and went at leisure. My girl, my baby girl, used to spend a decent amount of time in his care and enjoying his company. I encouraged her to go. She enjoyed going immensly, she came home and told me about how proud of her he was, and when I saw him in the school, he would always gush about how great my girl was and how she had a lovely and beautiful smile. Then he was found dead, at the bottom of the mountain. And it broke her heart all over again, it brought back everything that she had gone through losing her grandmother and her poppy just a few months before. She cried herself to sleep over this teacher for weeks. She was devastated.
Now to today...
The cameras, the questions, no answers to give, no answers to get.
This man, the one I described above was caught. He was caught in that great big net that was cast out over the past couple of days.
He is a PAEDOPHILE.
He had been charged with two counts and probably more to come.
So, he committed suicide.
This man, spent hours with my girl. I encouraged her to spend time with this filthy f*&^(&g peice of shit.
I am completely mortified, devastated and feel totally and utterly useless as a mother that I didnt know. I DIDN'T KNOW!!!!!!!!!!
I dont know what to do.
I am crushed.
Today I am grateful for,
The fact that he is gone, and will NEVER get his filthy disgusting, eyes or hands on my baby or anyone elses ever again.
